Today was my last Thursday of school. As in…the next time a Thursday rolls around I won’t be in school, or the next week or the next… (you get the idea 🙂
Monday will be my last Monday in school. Wow! There is something incredible about thinking about a Monday morning without having to go to school.
This is my last ‘two day’ weekend coming up. Soon…I might not even think in terms of weeks and weekends, doesn’t that sound delightful.
It might not even really sink in until the fall when everybody else is going back to school. I’m used to summer break but not, not going back in August. Coming to July 1 and not dreading the fact that school is on the horizon…I wonder what that will feel like.
Today I sat outside with children during music time. They played soccer and kickball and were on slides and swings. I watched and listened. Some even came over by me and just wanted to talk one on one or in small groups which was nice. They thanked me profusely for letting them go outside today on this beautiful day. As if I had been torturing them all year long by making them do music in the classroom 🙂
I knew what they meant. I just wanted to be outside too.
I went to my 8th grade choir class and only had about a dozen kids. Most were gone on a field trip. We just went outside too and hung out and visited. It was so nice. Reminded me of what I love best about teaching…the relationships you build.
I’m definitely on the wind down. Couldn’t be any closer without crossing the finish line. Tomorrow I have one hand of days left. (5 in case you were wondering 🙂
Today I read a blog post written by Jeff Shinabarger on “Plywood People” about current trends in our culture and one of the trends was the idea of taking a sabbatical or time off of work. I had no idea it was a growing trend. I don’t really know of anybody else doing it. Jeff wrote about how people are realizing they want life to slow down and wanting to re-program the way that they are doing life. I can understand that thought. I feel it.
I want to slow down.
I want to get back to basics.
I want to do less.
I want to be committed to less.
I want to create and do work that is meaningful to me. Work, where I lose all track of time. It’s possible…I know it is.
I want to be healthy, mind, body, heart and soul.
I want to listen more. To be present for others more.
I want to have the time to do whatever it is that I might so easily rush by in my normal busy daily grind.
I want to see what life is like from a different perspective. I’m not sure that I’ve been doing it right or how I want to do it longterm and I need to know if there is a better life waiting out there for me to just rise up and seize.
Today I received a beautiful letter from my mom in law, Martha. She told me that I have a gift of words, a gift of listening, a gift of encouraging, a give of adventure and a gift of passionate living. Sometimes it’s really helpful to have someone who knows us speak truth into our lives. Those are all areas that I want to pursue more.
I want my writing to rise to new levels.
I want to be there for friends and family to listen and ask questions and really get below the surface with them.
I want to be a person who pours encouragement at every opportunity.
A person who is not afraid, in fact embraces some great adventures.
A person who is not on autopilot…but is embracing life passionately, wringing every drop out of this experience.
For me…I believe that means a big change in my life. That’s what this sabbatical is about.
It’s coming. I think I’m ready. Who knows what I will find out about myself as I experience this change. Good or bad I want to move forward in my story.